Hey everyone, I am currently in the shop where I was working part time with my dad. It is not his shop. I have a key for when I work, and I know the alarm code, so I just came in so I have somewhere to sleep tonight.
I really appreciate all the nice words. I cannot accept any money from you. My eyes were welling up reading this thread. I have a credit card with a 500 dollar limit, and it is completely clear right now. I saw an ad for a bedroom for 320 per month, plus about 30 bucks for hydro each month. Everything else is included, internet, etc.
I don't really know what to say right now, because I wasn't expecting so much from all of you. I don't have anyone to turn to, and this is it for me. I am never going back to live with family again. That is behind me now. I will do whatever it takes to finish this course, and then go from there. I am actually excited to have a place I can call my own. I may not be able to buy all the things I would like, but as long as I have my guitar, some books, and gaf, I know I am going to be ok.
I found an old classical guitar in the shop burried behind some crap. The strings were all messed up, but there was a new set in the case so I strung it up and I am just going to relax and think about tomorrow.
I can't tell you all how much this means to me. Especially soultron.
I am sorry I didn't answer all the questions, but I will say that the conversation wasn't as smple as him saying get out and me saying ok. He went into some rant about not feeling obligated as a parent, etc, and then went into how he failed in raising my sister and I, and I said I didn't feel that way, but he just kept going, and then he said 'just another of my fuckups' and then broke down and started crying. He started to walk into the other room, and smashed a bunch of shit off a table in a rage, so then I just grabbed my back-pack, and left. I am going to get the most important things from his place. Just my school notes, text books, guitar, hard drive, and that is about it. I am going to leave my 360 behind and same with my tv. Maybe I will get them down the road when I have a place. The last time I left something at his place, I was trying to get it back so I could sell it for school money, but he was an asshole, and refused just to be a prick. I had to borrow the money off my gf at the time. He almost fucked up me being able to go to school. He is a prick and I have no desire to keep in contact with him after this. I will repay whatever money I feel I owe him when I graduate, but then that is the end of it.
My family is not like me, and I have no desire to be assosciated with them. I want to look forward. For the last year I have been depressed over losing the woman I loved, and it messed up my way of thinking. All I wanted was to have that person I trusted with me to hold me and comfort me when I needed it. Now I know that I don't need her. There is so much in this life to experience, and I am not going to dwell on useless shit. I am going to focus, and study, and graduate, and really make something of myself.
Well I am going to go play some guitar. I will keep you updated.
if he's sketchy we will kick him out 