you know I distinctly remember two things about the couple times I tried it, beyond pretty much forgetting everything else:
1) having my eyes open or closed didnt make any difference in what I was seeing whatsoever
2) I saw a cat on the window of my room loose all of its skin, as if it was melting, and the background to this imagery turned completely purple, like a green screen but purple. Weirdest thing about it is that I had this weird sense of deja-vu during this imagery and after that I had a very similar situation with a cat losing its skin once when I was doing LSD.
cats losing skin all around me man, someday i'll find out what this all means.
edit: in a way ive always felt that when im dying, I will see this same cat and hear this strange, almost backwards-voices-like noise that I hear everytime he appears, and never know the truth about it. Me being convinced that this will happen on the moment of my death pretty much confirms that it will indeed happen, if that makes any sense.
I really miss psychodelic drugs man, but I honestly I had this phase when I thought I had woken up to another reality and felt like I had become dettached from the one we all live in and this lasted like a month. I couldnt sleep and I spent all day crying in bed. I felt like I couldnt feel emotions and my life was like a movie that I was just watching, without being able to participate in it or change anything in any way. It was harsh, my girlfriend at the time became an emotional mess because she couldnt understand what was happening to me and im really scared of going through that again. A real shame. Im jealous of everyone who never had a bad trip.
This thing/condition actually has a name, but I dont want to look it up ever again because im scared of reliving the memories too much and falling into it again. It's the kind of thing you just have to forget about it ever happened in order to outlive it. Read stuff online of people who lived like that for years.
I never thought drugs could take a hold of my brain and make me lose my ego and fuck me up like that, but I went overboard. This post slowly turned into a real downer, but yeah, heads up.