im finishing off a couple rainiers. anyway, its like this ...
*basically*
this girl has been a looming shadow over my life for a long time, for whatever reason. first/only person i ever loved, i guess. we were together a couple years but we've been "broken up" for a couple years, too. YEARS! and i still think about this bitch, relatively often. she's simple, kind, honest, genuine, beautiful. i associate her with my homeland. she's a montana girl. we've been 99.9999% out of contact since i left. we talked on the phone a couple times, texted once or twice. i know thru the grapevine that she's now with some ripped up lumberjack fuck, but details have been vague. (i dont want details). wasnt sure exactly where she was living or anything. anyway, understand that i'm absolutely horrified of the idea of seeing this girl ever again. especially seeing her with a dude who is the absolute opposite of me, and seeing her happy. so, as far as current times go.. i'm going back home for a week or so over the holidays. the town where im from is pretty small. if i go back there and go down to the bars, and she's there, i'm going to see her. so last night i basically texted her to see where she was living, what were the chances that i'd run into her in missoula, etc
WEAK