What if I was never with it?
My view is that age bring the wisdom that being counter-culture is complete nonsense. Being older we can begin what a trend is and why our parents would say to not to worry about some things.
Hobbies like video games and anime were "counter-culture". Now they are main stream and old news.
Today I'm 39 and have been working on bettering myself with various degrees of success. Giving up porn is and masturbation is a big one. I spent too much time hiding doing that. Eight hours a day playing Minecraft? It's hard to justify that in my mind when having an idea how much labour it takes to maintain a home, provide food, clothing, heat and transportation. Sure, I could try to be a video streamer but I was born into a farm so I have an idea of how much physical labour people go through to keep the lights on in the world. Gets hard to justify sitting at the computer chair all day when I know the physical labour people go through on a daily basis. Because of this I find I have to reject "the counter-culture" to keep a good conscience.
These days a goal is to reflect upon my mistakes and resentments with the aim to let them go.
My girl friend brought up the topic of marriage last night. I'm not ready yet and she too would like to date for a year. My thought was marriage within two years. Since she is 39 I do have to take into account her age since she wants to have a child. Don't want to rush things but at the same time I know I can't drag my feet. This is life.