Weed is terrible thing when you have anxiety, it does not help it boost it.Damn homey.Sincerely hope you are able to make the most of this second chance. I was fortunate to learn fairly early in my drinking life that I had the gene. I could drink more, and drink longer than everyone else. Weed is so much more positive, less destructive for me. Good luck op ā
Well for me, it worked exceptionally un-well the biggest panix attack I have ever have and that was with benzos on the hands reach.
Ohh yes, I tried joint. Two of my weed smoking friends was fucked up while smoking one joint together. I subsequently smoked 3 of those. And nothing....well nothing after half an hour after, when the hell broke loose.
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This is same here obviously, still some people are going to meet and decide if I am going to receive something or not. As I said, I was being told that they care of me, but I should not expect miracles aka "You most likely die".
40mg of Diazepam per day...that's like a whole pack, at least I know that in here we have 20tablets per 2mg. That's crazy. Hangover are great, sadly I did not have them.
Moral of this story is at the end, don't be like me.
Be wary, that "I don't like alcohol" is not really something which prevents you from happening. Taste is shit, which I can agree on, but the peace on the mind which it can bring, when life is hard, is what does it make dangerous. Like I said, I hate it before I started having mental and relatioship issues.
Well on my weed has opposite effect, it basically give me Anxiety, hard.
No it was (at least I was told) normal ordinary weed, others well relaxed after that. I was not. But also it has zero effect on me, innitially. Like absolutely nothing.
There is no ordinary weed.
Yeah I rather not, I don't know what it was, but I was with my two buddies, who were very experienced weed smokers. I have no doubts in my mind that it would knock my ass into Anxiety. Because even before I tried it, when I smelled weed that it was smoked near me I started to feel uneasy, for some reason. Like after few minutes after exposure. One such incident was in Jaarbeurs, Utrecht where on A State of Trance, there was massive "weed cloud". Did not felt that good to be inhaling that stuff.
I've been informed that it could make you paranoid, if you smoke it for long period of time. Which I don't know, I was not paranoid, it was very physical type of sensation. Spinning head, like my body being crushed, shakes and shit like that.
You seems to be doing just find, haven't read something weird from you.
each their own, i don't take anything else
If you have organism, who is compatible with that shit. Besides smoking physically hurts and I know you can use it differently, but most common usage is smoking.
The best way is with edibles and especially vaporizers.
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: I really like reading your posts here, mate..
I was not scared, like at all. I did not know that it even can caused something as horrible as I felt. I thought that smell of Marihuana and my uneasiness, was just something coincidental. And something like alcohol just simply works...I don't think people can panic on it, since it dampers the responce on GABA receptors.
That's most likely related to Pancreatitis. I dodged the bullet, since basically most Liver transplants have big chance of developing Diabetes. And sorry to hear that, my luck is...weirdly...that I speedrun it. It has almost zero effect on my cognitive abilities and I am perfectly healthy. If this does not happened, I would be on some slow path to being idiot and developing something, which would be far harder than this. Besides, I felt zero pain in this whole ordeal, which is huge plus.
Glad you survived that shit. Alcohol is one hell of a drug, and most people underestimate how much it fucks you up in the long run. I know what I talk about, it killed my father (though giving him diabetes which killed him since he couldnt stop drinking).
It's better that way, trust me before you know it, you are Alcohol's bitch.
Well, I totally did not catch this. Clonazepam is pretty dangerous Benzo, because it stays in the system for far too long, like especially if you are dosing yourself 2 times per day, maybe you should reconsider to lower your dose.
Don't thank me brother. That's the least I can do and as I said above, I'll always be here for you whenever you need me.You know, I just probably suck as person, but somehow I want people to read this, so I am talking to myself to stay on first page. It took some motherfucking courage to write this, when I am totally out of this whole shit. But somewhat I feel guilty how I managed my life and how terribly fragile I am with my feelings, I hope people just listen to those two tracks linked higher, because they say more than I could write now. It's terrible feeling, this whole self reflection and I hope thatMista is going to read it, because he was the one of the first person in here to interact with me.
I hope you all don't mind me doing this.
Well, you are welcome.
I've learned my lesson, hard way. But honestly...dealing with Anxiety in this form. As much as I don't want to make excuse, what I experienced even before, led to it. Not my vice, I hate alcohol before. I did not expect....shit, I more and more ashamed to read that post. You know, I sounds like complete human garbage and if I take these things out, I think I otherwise done pretty good in life, but this still is going to be probably one thing I am going to be forever judged on. But, hiding it would be hypocritical and all I seek, is to show in raw form, what it can do, so if anyone find themselves in any part of the story. There is still chance to change things, reading through this would likely impact hardly my decision, because my luck to "speedrun" it this way, keep my brain still at the same level, even maybe better than before. Since I've learne or re-learn English after 6 months. And I know, there are typos, bad times used in the text. But let's just say, I have not proof readed at all to give authenticity, which it deserves. Maybe it sounds pretentious, but that's how I felt, I edited only more text, not words.
You aren't a human garbage, you're a normal human. We all do mistakes because that's how we learn
Like already or it's the good 'ol "from tomorrow"?
Hey, get well soon, I've heard Crohn is pretty shitty thing. I have never been to surgery, aside from this one. Not even like dentist, since I have no issues with that. So it was pretty shocking, but let's say I dodged shitton of bullets in form of Pancreatitis, Diabetes, Cancer....
Since monday, when I first read this thread..
Good for you, I hope you don't feel like shit, due to crawings etc. But if it's a beer, I think it's just fine : ) Well "fine", 0.5L beer is a lot of calories.
Not really. I guess it's more kind of a problem of getting used to drink over time.
I think one beer a day is okay.
I am doing a bit of workout, so those calories don't really affect me that much..
To me beer never do anything, like getting drunk from beer does not exists on me, so yeah I think you would be fine. I am not sure, if even cutting that one beer while cooking is necessary. Look at France, Spain, Italy, where they drinking light wine with every food and they are doing just fine.Not really. I guess it's more kind of a problem of getting used to drink over time.
I am never piss drunk anyway, cause I hate that state.
I think one beer a day is okay.
Really gives me a good time and mood while cooking and eating.
I am doing a bit of workout, so those calories don't really affect me that much..
I know pretty much about calories, and I eat one bun with something (ham, salami etc) on it in the morning, one around lunch time, and I cook something decent sized (not huge) in the evening for myself. Some small sweets after that.
Good for you, now I am slim, but before it was not that easy...
Well at some point, it's better to have transplant, than have some issues later on, which cound not be cured by surgery. They way I looked it, that surgery simply saved me. In way more way, than just Liver. So yeah.
