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Kanye has gone bye-bye, Egon

bitbydeath

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Wait, Jews aren’t white people?

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8bitpill

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I sometimes have conversations with my dad in my head. Some days It still hits me that he is gone. But it’s not that it gets easier it’s just I’m used to him not being around physically. Keep your father in your hearts and minds. But honest I would give anything to hug my dad again.
I miss his smell his voice.
Fuck man I’m 47 and I’m about to sob like a child.
I've most definitely have already had conversations in my head with him already.

I was close with my father. He was a single father, that raised me with my grandmother.

It never gets easier, it's just how you condition yourself after losing someone very close. Just happen two years ago with my mother in law, and I think about her weekly.

I went down to his work, and grabbed his belongings. It still has his smell on it, so when I go back down to his house, I will be grabbing a couple tpieces of his clothing and vacuum sealing them, so when I do forget his smell, I can just open that up. I have two voice mails from him I will be keeping and a bunch of videos to remind me of house voice.

I'm 41 and every time I think of him I get choked up and eyes full of tears.
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Sorry for your loss man, thanks for sharing though.
 

8bitpill

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I lost mine last year, and he was the complete opposite in terms of preparation. It was a nightmare to figure it all out with my mother. It was really kind of your father to be a forward thinker like that.

I'm sorry brother, I hate that you went through that. I hope his end was peaceful at least.
Sorry to read about your loss as well man. I hope things have leveled out for you since then. I do have to get through some hoops with his things (clearing out the house, selling the house, closing out all of his accounts, etc).

Thanks for the good words friend. The way my aunt found him, it thankfully look like it happen without struggle and they found him in a very peaceful state.
 

jufonuk

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I've most definitely have already had conversations in my head with him already.

I was close with my father. He was a single father, that raised me with my grandmother.

It never gets easier, it's just how you condition yourself after losing someone very close. Just happen two years ago with my mother in law, and I think about her weekly.

I went down to his work, and grabbed his belongings. It still has his smell on it, so when I go back down to his house, I will be grabbing a couple tpieces of his clothing and vacuum sealing them, so when I do forget his smell, I can just open that up. I have two voice mails from him I will be keeping and a bunch of videos to remind me of house voice.

I'm 41 and every time I think of him I get choked up and eyes full of tears.
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Sorry for your loss man, thanks for sharing though.
My dad passed in 2019 in Jan so his anniversary of his passing has come and gone. I was sad because I didn’t even realise the date. Until my family pointed it out.
 

8bitpill

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My dad passed in 2019 in Jan so his anniversary of his passing has come and gone. I was sad because I didn’t even realise the date. Until my family pointed it out.
January 20th 2025 was my fathers.

I forgot my grandmothers recently and felt like a goon, since she raised me with my father and was a mother to me.
 

jufonuk

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Sorry to read about your loss as well man. I hope things have leveled out for you since then. I do have to get through some hoops with his things (clearing out the house, selling the house, closing out all of his accounts, etc).

Thanks for the good words friend. The way my aunt found him, it thankfully look like it happen without struggle and they found him in a very peaceful state.
Yeah the whole probate stuff isn’t nice to do. Had to go to old banks and ask about his old accounts some people went out their way were kind etc. one bank the cashier was kinda rude asking why I left it so long. One a pandemic & two doing all this is like a long goodbye where you have to say the same thing to everyone IE my dads dead I need to make sure no money is owed and to close anything he may have.
I did try and get some of his old clothes but they lost his smell. :(
 
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poodaddy

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Sorry to read about your loss as well man. I hope things have leveled out for you since then. I do have to get through some hoops with his things (clearing out the house, selling the house, closing out all of his accounts, etc).

Thanks for the good words friend. The way my aunt found him, it thankfully look like it happen without struggle and they found him in a very peaceful state.
That's a beautiful thing man, a good end. I won't sour the vibe by describing the state they found Randy in but it.... wasn't that. I think that's why it screwed me up so bad. I couldn't stand the idea of a good man dying in a way that was just unfair, ....and frankly terrifying. I felt like somehow I was partially responsible for his end being so awful by being in Maine when he was in TN, convinced myself that if I was there it wouldn't have happened like that. Truth be told, even if I was still in TN, there's nothing I could have done. Hurt bad for a bit though.

We still haven't sold his house, but brother it's in a bad state man. I honestly don't know how he lived in that thing, but he was made of different stuff. The roof was caved in by a tree that fell, there's a colossal hole in the laundry room/kitchen walk in with literally thousands of bugs just emanating out of it, and there's water damage everywhere. If he told me what his living conditions were I would have demanded he move up here to stay with us, but that old marine never would have accepted help. I think my mother will have to just have it torn down and sell the land, as the house just isn't really inhabitable anymore. I wish I could do more to help her. I did hook her up with a great real estate agent who I truly trust, as we were great friends growing up, and she's working with her.

Jeez, that was too long. Well, anyway....yeah. Death sucks man. Here's hoping neither of us experience anymore of that shit anytime soon in our lives, or hell, I hope noone on this board does. Let's all just have a beer and play some games before this whole thing goes up in flames :)
 

8bitpill

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That's a beautiful thing man, a good end. I won't sour the vibe by describing the state they found Randy in but it.... wasn't that. I think that's why it screwed me up so bad. I couldn't stand the idea of a good man dying in a way that was just unfair, ....and frankly terrifying. I felt like somehow I was partially responsible for his end being so awful by being in Maine when he was in TN, convinced myself that if I was there it wouldn't have happened like that. Truth be told, even if I was still in TN, there's nothing I could have done. Hurt bad for a bit though.

We still haven't sold his house, but brother it's in a bad state man. I honestly don't know how he lived in that thing, but he was made of different stuff. The roof was caved in by a tree that fell, there's a colossal hole in the laundry room/kitchen walk in with literally thousands of bugs just emanating out of it, and there's water damage everywhere. If he told me what his living conditions were I would have demanded he move up here to stay with us, but that old marine never would have accepted help. I think my mother will have to just have it torn down and sell the land, as the house just isn't really inhabitable anymore. I wish I could do more to help her. I did hook her up with a great real estate agent who I truly trust, as we were great friends growing up, and she's working with her.

Jeez, that was too long. Well, anyway....yeah. Death sucks man. Here's hoping neither of us experience anymore of that shit anytime soon in our lives, or hell, I hope noone on this board does. Let's all just have a beer and play some games before this whole thing goes up in flames :)
Damn man, sorry to read that. I'm sure it tore you up. Our parents do everything for us and as we get older we always want to return the favor and they never ask for anything in return.

My father was retiring this year and moving up to Maine with us till he found his own home to buy here. One of the hardest things about him not being here anymore is my daughter doesn't have an amazing grandfather to grow up with. I'm just glad they got the time they did and they form a close relationship.

I went to the "what if I went down while he was recovering from surgery, would he still be alive!?!" My Aunt and his best friend were watching him, and in all honesty, I don't think it would've matter if we were there in the moment, because it was most likely a blood clot/embolism.

As for his house, the neighborhood I grew up in, turned into a ghetto in the early 2000's right as I was moving out. His house isn't in great condition, but I'm not doing one thing besides getting all of the stuff out and putting it up on the market. Its a current shit hole area and the people that've moved into that are in the last 20 years treated it like a dump and didn't upkeep their properties.

Death is rough, losing a parent feels like a huge piece of you dies off.

Hope you and your family have been OK through this.
 

DrFigs

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he might've cooked with some of these tweets. but then he threw in some bad ones too. smh. so its a wash
 

poodaddy

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Damn man, sorry to read that. I'm sure it tore you up. Our parents do everything for us and as we get older we always want to return the favor and they never ask for anything in return.

My father was retiring this year and moving up to Maine with us till he found his own home to buy here. One of the hardest things about him not being here anymore is my daughter doesn't have an amazing grandfather to grow up with. I'm just glad they got the time they did and they form a close relationship.

I went to the "what if I went down while he was recovering from surgery, would he still be alive!?!" My Aunt and his best friend were watching him, and in all honesty, I don't think it would've matter if we were there in the moment, because it was most likely a blood clot/embolism.

As for his house, the neighborhood I grew up in, turned into a ghetto in the early 2000's right as I was moving out. His house isn't in great condition, but I'm not doing one thing besides getting all of the stuff out and putting it up on the market. Its a current shit hole area and the people that've moved into that are in the last 20 years treated it like a dump and didn't upkeep their properties.

Death is rough, losing a parent feels like a huge piece of you dies off.

Hope you and your family have been OK through this.
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I'm the Cheri O Teri in this situation lol. You're true blue brother. We gotta get together and get a drink or a coffee, (matcha for me as I'm decaf these days due to a rare condition known as being terminally boring), here at some point, we live like two hours from each other and I've been here three years now lol.
 

nkarafo

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How is being against Nazism woke?

It's not woke, it never was. It's the default, common sense state of every half decent human being in a modern society.

Which means you don't need to announce it or wear a t-shirt that states it, unless you want to directly oppose neo-nazis during a neo-nazi rally or something. It's not uncommon or edgy to be against Nazism, that's like among the minimum requirements you need to meet. You are not saying anything of importance, it's a like wearing a t-shirt that says "i'm not a bad person". Which would at least be a bit sarcastic.

But, if you still feel the need to wear it like a badge it in your everyday life then it becomes virtue signalling for attention. And that's something woke people really crave 24/7. Maybe that's what he means with that particular post.
 

Heimdall_Xtreme

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You must have very low self-esteem for you to want to attract attention.

In addition to a strong psychiatric disorder...
 

8bitpill

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I'm the Cheri O Teri in this situation lol. You're true blue brother. We gotta get together and get a drink or a coffee, (matcha for me as I'm decaf these days due to a rare condition known as being terminally boring), here at some point, we live like two hours from each other and I've been here three years now lol.
Thanks man. That sounds good. Once I get past this I will reach out to you. Possibly around the start of the summer since I will be past most of handling my fathers affairs.
 

Drew1440

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Looks like a mental breakdown alright
His new wife and doctors decided he isn’t mentally ill. He was misdiagnosed with bipolar, So he is no longer taking any bipolar meds. He was correctly diagnosed now with Autism since it just fits his personality better according to the naked woman at the Grammys.
It's a shame mental health isn't taken seriously these days.
 

Days like these...

Have a Blessed Day
His new wife and doctors decided he isn’t mentally ill. He was misdiagnosed with bipolar, So he is no longer taking any bipolar meds. He was correctly diagnosed now with Autism since it just fits his personality better according to the naked woman at the Grammys.
It's a shame mental health isn't taken seriously these days.
I don't know much about bipolar disorder but can it make you go on a racist rant? Even when he's been "normal" his opinions were wild and sometimes self hating. Remeber his "Slavery was a choice"?
 

poodaddy

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Thanks man. That sounds good. Once I get past this I will reach out to you. Possibly around the start of the summer since I will be past most of handling my fathers affairs.
Heck yeah man. I got the VA to approve a third degree for me, (somehow lol), so I'm just studying like crazy and I'm hoping to get some time off in Summer. I ended up falling in with a good group of dudes in Orono around here at the local arcade, and I gotta say, it might be the best privately owned arcade in the state. I take my daughter all the time and she loves it. Maybe we could let the kids get wild in there for a day at some point, would be a good time, and the owner's a true veteran game lover, great dude. Anyway, that's enough of me bogarding a Kanye going crazy thread to talk to my bud lol, see ya soon bro.
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