Hey thank you so much for this. Broken is a great way of summing her up.
She has £10k in credit card debt (mostly amassed over the last couple years with her drinking and paying for various bits around the court case), she has to pay £340 a month on that....then she has her phone contract of £65, she recently got her son an iPhone (refurb) and that's £35 a month . Then she has broadband and all usual other house hold bills (rent, council tax, utilities). And NOW only this week she's just ordered a new double bed and mattress for the sons room (£1100) and a 55" TV (I took mine). Both of those are on finance too.
Now, she only works part time (16 hrs a week) on national wage £12ish per hour), so I do wonder what she is going to do for money each month after all that. She gets some benefits but she was used to me being there, I'd usually give her £800 a month, I think she's gonna miss that soon enough!
Broken indeed
Fuuuuuck.
My ex was similar with money. Although not as bad as that.
One fine day she decided she wanted a new wordrobe and new kitchen bits that all matched.
In her wisdom she got a one day money loan. You know the ones with the stupidly high APR.
I think it was for about £3k
When I asked her where she got the cash from she said it was from her parents.
She didn't tell me for six months and she only ended up tell me because her debt was out of control.
We were together for just shy of a decade and the shit she would lie about just sent my head sailing.
Me nor my family could ever work out why she lied about things. But she had weird demons too I guess.
I don't hold any ill will againts her. I hope she's gotten on with life and sorted her head out.
I'm in my late 30's and i'm content with being single. I get loanly some days but Try to fill my life with hobbies or new projects.
But the best cold shower for me is just remembering the constant headaches and feeling like I was wating for the next drama to occur.
It sounds like you've given her a lot of yourself and probably still are by picking her kid up for her.
Focus on yourself bud. Get a motorbike or get some helicopter lessions. Got climbing or join a boxing club.
It will take a bit of time to get over the hump but you will eventually feel like a new man.
Good luck
edit: Mate of mine once said. "If wemon didn't have a fanny or tits then we would have absolutely nothing to do with them"
It's a very basic saying buy I can't find fault in it.